It’s been almost two months since I last wrote a real blog post. Life has been crazy busy. I believe 2014 is going to be an amazing year. It has already gotten off to a great start. In January, I celebrated four years of sobriety; one of the hallmarks of my life to date.
Now, I want to do something different with post than I’ve done in the past. Yes. You guessed it. I want to keep it short. I want to talk briefly about three things I have been thinking about a lot lately. If you stick around you will not only get your brain worked, but you will be privy to the second most exciting news of my life. I hope I can keep your attention for another seven minutes.
Here we go.
First off, let’s talk about God. Do you believe in God? Do you not believe in God? Well, I have a solution for you. Believe what you want and leave everyone else alone. I have been thinking a lot about how personal our relationship is with the external world. Our view of everything though spring from our internal perspective and how we take in information and process it. Every single one of the 6.5 Billion people on this earth is so unique that I feel it is beyond our basic human comprehension to truly understand how different each person on this earth is.
Every human is composed of billions and billions of cells, their minds comprised of a rapidly moving 60,000 plus thoughts a day, created by experiences so different from anyone else’s, it would be foolish if we really thought we had the right tell others what they need to believe, think or do. Though we do it this exact thing all the time.
You can believe in the Big Bang. You can believe in any religion you want. Even if you live in a country without supposed individual freedoms, you can still believe what you want in your mind. Here is what I am trying to get at. The world inside our heads, is ours and only ours. We can share it, but how often do we share it honestly and openly?
What I want to stress is that the world in your head is yours. You can tell yourself any story you want to believe and no one can change your mind. You can make up shit that isn’t true and believe it. Humans do it all the time when we gossip, tell lies and make assumptions. We all know that when it comes to Religion and Politics, rarely do people ever change their mind about either.
God and evolution are both man-made concepts; written, translated and passed down through many generations. Even though evolution is scientifically “tested,” it is only a theory, which can eventually be disproved. Science still has not proved that a God doesn’t exist and the “God” followers can always use the trump card by saying, “Who created the spark of the matter to cause the Big Bang?” This Trump card is like betting $601 for the appliance on the Price is Right, immediately after the screaming co-ed next to you just bet $600. Final point is, when you die you take all of your opinions and ideas with you. Hence, each once of us has a whole universe inside of us. We can think and believe anything we want, but that doesn’t mean we should push these thoughts and beliefs on others. Here is a thought I am pushing on you, “Let’s love our fellow man regardless of everything else.” When we are gone so is that wicked universe of ideas in and thoughts in our heads that we spun all of our lives. Just go out from here, be gentle to each other and love your fellow man. Amen!
I want to talk about the Son, Felipe. I am so proud of the man my son is growing into. He is one of the kindest people I know. I am so happy he has found a beautiful young lady to give his love to and wish him the best. I am so glad that I got sober in time to be able to enter back into his life and build a better relationship with him. He has his own path, just life each one of us does. I am blessed that when I was not at my best, my son was given the shelter of a loving home and so much more by his mom, step dad and delightful younger siblings. I am so grateful for these people. Felipe is an intelligent, creative, hard-working and gentle young man who has a bright future ahead. He will be graduating this year and starting on his own journey into manhood. I know whatever he does will bring him success and wherever he goes he will always take his great attitude and sense of humor with him. I love you so much, Felipe! The other day I was thinking about one of my favorite memories of him. I will always cherish the time I took him to Coachella for his first concert, Rage Against the Machine, when he was about 12. Yes, I know! Totally appropriate. I remember him and I getting smashed in the swaying crowd and singing at the top of our lungs. But, I what I remember best was when towards the end of the night we moved to the back of the crowd to stand and I turned around and watch my him singing the songs at the top of his lungs and dancing around. That is when I realized that we both shared the freedom of personality that music gives an individual. Thank you for sharing that moment with me son.
I met an amazing woman about seven months ago that I want to tell you about. She is intelligent, spiritual, kind and beautiful inside and out. She has been a great compliment to me and through really honest and open communication we are growing closer every day. Thank you, Janette for coming into my life. You are all that a man could ask for in a partner. I know you have so much to teach me. Thank you for enriching my life. I love you very much!
I wanted to end this post with a game. I just finished my latest art piece. This one is a collage titled, “Tony begats Frida, who begats Phoebe Viva Antionette Fernandez. If you look close enough at the picture you can see the answer to the riddle, which is posed in the title of this painting. If you don’t get the answer you will probably see it posted all over my Facebook page sometime in September of this year. Click on the post titled, 0+1=Abundance and there is a picture at the bottom. That will give you the answer.